1. Moseying Along in January

January 29, 2009.

I can't seem to keep a journal. I've started sooo many, but I've never actually finished one recently. So I'm going to try my best to keep this one.

So a few days ago I went to the doctor for a TB test. Thankfully, I am TB negative, hooray. Except I also got weighed. It sucks not having a weight scale at home. My mom won't get one. And she won't let anyone else. It's pretty aggravating. I'm always having to guess my progress. :T But yeah, I'm 102 pounds now. Ew. I probably weigh as much as the 101 Dalmations combined.

WHAT HAPPENED TO MY BEAUTIFUL 95 pounds?!?!?!
I used to fit a 24 comfortably at the beginning of the year. Now I am back at my annoying 25 and feeling insecure because my thighs and belly are so frigging FAT and spilling over my waistband when I bend over. Ugh ugh ugh. But relax! I will get back down.. THE HEALTHY WAY this time.

I used to be anorexic. But then my family intervened.....
Hence, 2 months of stress + forced binging. but now that they think I've "recovered" I'm going to get myself back down. just less drastically, so they don't get pissed at me again. I'm sick of having somebody follow me around going "Oh, you should eat this. Oh, what about that? What did you eat today? You should eat more." It's like, SHUT THE HELL UP. I can feed myself, thank you very much. I'm not a vegetable. -sigh-

The vital facts:
Height: 5'3.5'' (yeah, I'm pretty short. Haha runs in the women of the family.)
Current Weight (CW): 102
Lowest Weight (LW): 92 (how I miss this...)
Highest Weight (HW): 112 - gross.
Short Term Goal Weight (STGW): 98
Long Term Goal Weight (LTGW): 94