17. Good Friday

Thank you all for your comments! I'm flattered people even read my blog at all. :)

I realized I've never told you all my name yet. Haha my name is Samaire. I'm not sure how other people with the same name pronounce it, but my family pronounces it Sa-mah-rey. :)

Sooo today is Good Friday. Aka fasting day. My mom is fasting with me today because of religious reasons, and for about 2 hours she's been suggesting things like, "What if we just fast 2 meals, and eat one? Come on. We're going to faint!!" And I've been like, "Mom, if you want to eat something, then go ahead. But I am fasting the entire day - it's GOOD FRIDAY." It's a little upsetting that my mom can eat anything in the world and still look amazing at her age, but it's also really funny that she has so many issues with fasting. I hate so many aspects of my ED, but it has definitely made me stronger in resisting food that is unnecessary.

Intake so far:
B: Brown rice green tea (my OBSESSION. it's amazing. better than regular green tea!!) (0)
L: 1 stick of Orbit Pomegranate gum (Ahh! I cheated! I wasn't supposed to consume ANYTHING... not even gum.) (about 5 or so)
Eh. I'll live. Hopefully I can stay away from more gum!

Today's thinspo - completely celebrity oriented. Sorry if you're not in the U.S., or if you hate celebrities. But they really are an amazing source of thinspo...

(Majority of pics from Justjared.com - he's the nicest blogger (about celebs) I've ever seen. Perez Hilton is funny, but he's so harsh)

Starting with before&after pics:
Nicole Richie


Britney Spears


Courtney Love


Angelina Jolie


Jennifer Connelly


Megan Fox (Before) - She was forced to gain weight for Transformers 2.


Megan Fox (After) - Such a hot body. Geez.


Selena Gomez



Lindsay Lohan - She's losing so much weight recently!


Emma Roberts


Taylor Momsen - She freaking got signed to IMG Models (aka GISELE BUNDCHEN'S agency!!) at the age of 15. Hmm. Wanna know why? Look:





Rachel McAdams - Can you believe she's 30 or so? She looks younger.


Random girls from Nickolodeon (I probably spelled that wrong. Woops. Haha)




Jessica Stroup:


Taylor Swift:



Freida Pinto:


Victoria Beckham:




Anyway, stay strong everyone!
We'll look more beautiful than these celebrities soon - thin it to win it.
<3

16. Spring Break

So I have finally been on spring break for a few days. It's been so relaxing to get a break from school, but it's hardly the rejuvenating spring break I was hoping for. Instead, my family decided to invite a plethora of cousins, aunts, uncles, etc. for an Easter gathering. So they are here to stay for quite some time. And I barely have any alone time, or time to think, and I'm forced to eat stuff. Ah, oh well. Life's never fair. It will make my weight loss even sweeter when they're all gone though, I suppose.

Got my photos back from my recital, and everyone's commenting on how I should model because I am so thin and beautiful, yadda yadda. Yeah, right. If that were true, I wouldn't see all of the fat in the mirror. People irk me sometimes.

Oh, is anyone else here observing Easter? I am - I always do. I'm religious, so obviously I am reserving, haha. But yeah. This year is my first Good Friday with an ed. It makes me feel guilty because it's like I have a different reason for fasting - not just for the suffering. But I guess fasting is fasting when it comes down to it. I will just feel better about myself when I fast this year. Hmmm..

Here's some thinspo for you all~ You'll notice much of it is summer-y. I'm starting to get really paranoid about how I will look in a bikini. Lots of motivation.... Stay strong. <3

[I especially love that picture of the legs in the grass and a deck of cards. It's so random, but it's just so beautiful...]