And I argued that no, Hamlet is indeed a man of action - it just takes him a while to get there, but that this person had to read the entire play to realize what I meant. But no, this person kept on arguing that they were correct.
You know those people who think they're always right, no matter what? Yeah, case in point.
But yeah. So I realized I'm like Hamlet in the beginning of the play - I ALWAYS whine to myself about how I'm not motivated enough, how I binge, how I slip, fall, etc.
So much crap has happened this week, but I've been trying not to let it get to me. Of course, tonight, I broke down and had one of the HUGEST binges I have ever had. I honestly think I had about 2000 calories. I feel like I will explode. I don't understand how "normal" people eat this much every day.
I'm refusing to take laxies or purge though. I'm going to pay for my actions. The consequences should teach me to TOUGHEN THE FUCK UP. lol
So Hamlet has become my new muse.
He takes a looooong time to figure out what he's gotta do, and for a while, he is all talk but no actions. BUT he finally figures it all out at the end.
I'm done being the weak Hamlet. Fuck it.
I'm going to lose weight like never before.
Do I want this????
Or... this?
I'm sure you know the answer.
Stay strong~
<3 Samaire
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My feet get sore sometimes, but it's not too bad. I don't do it enough for them to get callused. But yeah, it's very freeing. :o)
Good luck shaking off the Hamlet in you (even though I'm sure that's not true!)!
-SS-
xx, Daisy
.o.m.g. why didn't I check your blog BEFORE I ate a handful of jellybeans?! God that was excellent reverse thinspo.
Love Hamlet. That girl needs to get to the end :) And you shouldn't be so hard on yourself, you aren't wishy washy like deary H.
'I'm refusing to take laxies or purge though. I'm going to pay for my actions. The consequences should teach me to TOUGHEN THE FUCK UP. lol'
I think that is something I need to master at the moment, the guilt I feel after a binge just drives me to purge, most of the time via vomiting, sometimes via exercise but mostly both...
'So Hamlet has become my new muse.
He takes a looooong time to figure out what he's gotta do, and for a while, he is all talk but no actions. BUT he finally figures it all out at the end'.
^^ That is a good way of putting it, fact is you can't ignore what you have to do, you can deny it/put it off for a while but it then just eats away at you more (no pun intended ;) honest!)
Omg, I just wrote a long comment but I am on my iPod and it decided to be a little bitch and turn off :)
So now I'm annoyed and can't even remember what I wrote.......
I hate people who think they always need to be right! Ugh!
PROM :)
Hope you did better than I did today :/
-Karissa
Oh my word, totally never occured to me to put reverse and normal thinspo right next to eachother. It doubles the impact! I love it :)
Thanks!
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